self emo

haha...my dear came bk le...realy happy to c her...bt soon oso gt emo...aiiz...duno y...i juz cant control myself...thinking too much...dam...zzzz...i wish i can be more self control...bt i cant...perhaps its a common thing every guy faces...disliking their gf to get too close wif ppl they duno or more specificly other guys beside themselves...too bad i shared the same opinion...izzit a bad 1? i realy duno...juz noe dat will get realy emo wen she goes out wif other guys...even though its a bunch of ppl...aiiz...realy wish i can change it...i tot i was different...able to accept...bt in the end...im juz another normal guy who wans to keep their gf to themselves...i admit...i dislike n jealous wen dear goes out wif other guys...although to her its juz a normal gathering...even the guys had no bad intention...bt i juz tend to think too much...more than it will realy be...im so sked dat my actions will coz our relationship to go wrong...i realy dowan to lose her...maybe even myself duno hw much madly im into her...aiiz...juz had the feeling of losing her everytime or during the time she's nt wif me...maybe im too selfish...juz wan to keep her to myself...indirectly confiscate her freedom...dis is a realy bad thing...i realy dowan it to happen...i noe her heart wont change...perhaps im being too protective...aiiz...im sorry dear...bt i juz wan to say...sometimes i realy dislike wen i receive ur msgs late...it gives me no 安全感...im sorry...for being mean at times wen im emo...hope dat u will c dis post...although i duno wen will it be the time...