5th

juz reach home...so tired...bt i insisted on blogging...haha...coz cant blog for few days later...going to kl to listen to motivation talk about business...2day my mood is ok...wun say sad...juz miss her alot...common though...went out to takei earlier then head to fren house...my fren asked me to go =.= go there help her in her studies...ok lo...went...had a good session...help her out in her ACCA business studies...tried our best...had quite some fun...talk about many things as well...suddenly a topic came up...love...n i was mentioned...asked me about my dear n things...showed her the pic...dis oso hurts me as i c her pic...i begin to think of our memories...aiiz...cant do anytg...she is gone...got a bit emo...since it was late...we decided to go home...on the way back...talk to my fren about it...told him hw i felt n think...maybe in his heart he wil think im silly...or maybe not...bt...i noe wad im thinking n doing...maybe its useless for me to blog every now n then...coz no ppl will read...i dun care...coz i noe there might be a chance dat she will read...although i duno...bt i stil felt...she stil has feelings on me...ppl saying she has another up there...although it hurts me wen i heard dat...bt i have choosen to believe dat she don...maybe she realy has no feel towards me...i have been tru it...the pass days where she left me for genting...i tot i lost the feel...bt...its juz a mere wrong thinking...its becoz i haven met her for sometime...n i juz couldnt react wen she returns...i duno hw she felt...duno whether izzit real dat she has no feel on me or she felt the same as i did last time...or maybe...i duno...as much as i wanted to noe...i cant...maybe keep it unreveal is oso a good thing...i duno whether the true is good or bad...all i ever think now is...can we at least be normal frens back? at least avoidance can be avoided...juz felt she is avoiding me...maybe she duno hw to face me...or maybe she stil loves me n dowan to get hurt...there could be posibilities...i duno which they r...the truth is...she noes it...if she stil has the feeling on me...she will read my post...maybe i can juz wait till god or she is willing to give me another chance...