wad a nitemare...perhaps the worst i had so far

kinda tired lately...class n work...haha...bt i kinda enjoyed it...especialy wen i receive my 1st month salary =) ...been taking naps recently after class n before work...bt 2day i had a horible nightmare...totaly horible...it was like dis...i went on a vacation wif my sweetheart...speak on vacation were supose to be a sweet 1...we went to a place...duno where it is...then appear dat im calling the tmnet for her...as her line was cut recently...then we went on to have food somewhere...in the dream we don have any vehicle...so we get on a cab to get to places...then we reach a restaurant...somehow she went on search for something or someone...leaving me alone...then i was waiting...sudenly a bunch of my frens appear infront of me...saying gona offer me a ride...then i went searching for her...bt she was nowhere to be found...i was freak out...in the dream...i tried doing wadever i can bt stil i cant find her...i was blank...then i woke up frm the nightmare...lucky she was beside me...she saw my freak face...i hug her then...not wanting to let go...later on...i sense dat the dream may prove something...im too afraid to lose her...too afraid too lose my half soul...ever since the big quarel between us...my fear of losing her has gotten higher...without my senses...guess i juz cant bear to lose her in my life...

wish dat i can protect her even im nt by her side

recently her emotions had been unstable...perhaps is the pressure of studies n STPM is around the corner...i understand...im trying my very best to give her all my support and love...of coz...in pursue of sumthing...sacrifice need to be made...i sacrifice my frens for dat...though i have been receiving unhappy sayings towards my action...i DON CARE!! nothing more important than doing my best for my love one...her uncle's daughter juz came bk frm east coast...the 1st nite she is bk...she made my dear cry *grrrr* stupid cute face old bitch...got nothing else to do bt to make my dear cry...cunt...geting worried about my dear...she say her mum doesnt trust her...well i duno the case...bt stil it isnt right to rather trust some1 rather than trusting ur own daughter...the one who u born after 10months...aiiz...futhermore im working at nite...i hardly can have time to comfort her n reply her msgs T____T...she is gona have her exam 2mr...i cant do anything to help her...im juz so useless...every now and then im juz giving verbal support...juz saying gambateh n jia you...nothing else...i juz hope dat she wil be alrite in 2mr exam...good luck dear in ur exam...i love u forever <3