幸福的味道

slighty better frm my sickness...i tot i wud juz go tru my nite peacefully at home...was surfing facebook n watching movie at pps...pick "bolt" to watch =)...same time texting wif my dear...haha...was enjoying the movie...playing applications on facebook too...sudenly she text me saying im outside ur house...i was a bit stunned...i head out to c n she's realy there...of coz i would love to c her...bt wad i didnt expect was...she packed me food...n a packet of strepsils...i was like...m i dreaming? she rush home after sending me the package...coz she doesnt realy have the permission to go out...bt she lie to her mum juz to go out pack food for me...dat moment...i realy duno wad to say...neither i know hw to describe my feelings...it was like...幸福 is engulfing me...the 1st time i ever felt so...finaly i truly understands wad it meant by 幸福...i aint gona let it go...neither im gona let my sweetheart go...i love u forever sweetheart <3 don leave my side...coz u r my everything...

sick jor T_T

been quite awile since my last blog...ntg much to write lately...haha...coz everyday is a happy day...get to c my dear...bt i fall sick last nite...OMG H1N1...haha no la...so easy kena meh...go jusco watch 1 movie then kena swt =.=...aiya...juz normal fever flu n cough...the flu aint serious bt the fever n cough is geting the pieces out of me...she was wif me ytd...bt i aint realy gt the energy to pay attention on her...my head was a bit dizzy so i took a nap meanwhile she was sitting infront of the pc...bt i can c the worry face of hers...she is realy worried bout me...sry dear...made u worry =(...went n c her last nite...i felt better at nite after taking some medicine =)...she was eager to c me as she was missing n worried bout me...send her home around 11.30pm as she will be having tt the next day...woke up early dis morning...my illness din get better...my fever got worse as it reaches the temperature of 38.7 =x...took rest in the noon...my condition is like a mountain...went good then gone bad again...took dinner early juz now then had some medicine...then she came over to c me...she was very worried =(...i tried to cheer her up bt i guess it din work much...she was forcing me to put on a cold wet handkerchief to cooldown my fever temperature...felt so sweet wen she put it in for me n exchange the cold handkerchief...haha after sick oso gt good thing xD...2mr is her fren bday party...i promise her to go...gota get myself recovered by 2day n make sure the sickness din come bk 2mr...else i realy cant go to the celebration...i muz recover...gambateh chris !!!

abnormal feelings

hmm...woke up at 10.40am 2day...tot dat its juz another saturday dat i would go tru normally...bt the fact is it isnt...had strange feelings...as usual i text my sweetheart morning msg as i woke up...kinda annoyed her last nite...well text her as normal i would do...bt her replies seems odd...kinda reluctant to reply it seems...i duno the fact...dats juz wad i felt...she gt tt 2day...of coz during tt she cant text me...bt 2day i felt strange wen she doesnt text me...even if for normal days she wud have even wen she is driving...bt 2day it doesnt happen...perhaps she is angry wif me...i realy duno...my mind is blank...ntg bt the matter keep appears in my mind...sudenly i felt like lack of something...its been some time since i felt like dis...will dis resemble something? i wish it doesnt...coz if dis does...i know it wun be something dat favors me...my eyes felt different...its kinda liquid...if i din recall wrongly...the last time dis happens was 2 years pass...wudnt like to mention it...juz wish the incident don repeat itself...bt sometimes things r nt fully control by ppl themselves...realy duno wad im typing or doing...perhaps someone could cure me...

heart speaks

its been a week since a last blog...well...the week pass quite fast enough...well as life says...there r sweet and bitter in life...so does mine...bt the lvl of sweetness is more than bitter =P...as i got her...my sweetheart wif me...she is like a trigger button...a happy trigger button to me...whenever i c her...happiness is wif me...its almoz 2 months since im wif her...exact to say is 2 more days to 2 months...hahaha...its a happy 2 months...bt sometimes...i felt lonely wen she is nt around me...juz like the laughter disappeared...stil rmb few days ago...she sudenly told me dat someone is trying to "chase" her...my reaction was like...wtf wth omfg smlj...i couldnt hide my reaction wen she told me dis...bt the actualy fact is...she was juz asking...the incident is nt happening to her bt her fren...i admit i was a little annoyed then...bt my heartbeat couldnt lie myself...i am so concern til my heart feels like tearing apart the 3rd party...bt was a little relieve wen i heard she was juz asking my opinion...bt there r also something tearing my heart besides that...which is to c her tired look after skul...n yet she wans to accompany me...i felt bad...she rather sleeps late to accompany me...of coz i m happy bt same time oso heart pain wen i noe dat she is tired bt yet refuse to sleep...juz like ytd...she was tired after skul...accompany her for lunch then went window malling around malls in bercham...hahahah...head back to my house later on...she was checking her facebook then...went on bed after she was done...bt i din accompany her...i dowan to disturb her nap as i can c tru her face...her lvl of fatigueness is increasing day by day...i was sitting at infront my pc as i watch her sleeps...i know...if i were to hug her then...her rest wouldnt be enuf...thus i decide to let her take her peaceful nap...came across an agreement towards the phrase...happy moments pass juz too fast...everytime im wif her...the time juz pass too fast...i wish i had the ability to control time...then i can be wif her for all the time in my life...bt there juz isnt the ability to do so...bt at least i can appreciate all the time i can have wif my sweetheart...watching her hugging her kissing her...sometimes i think...hw would my life be wen she is working at genting at the end of the year...bt the question juz doesnt have an answer...guess i might juz stop thinking about it...all does matter is that she is wif me...by my side...laopo i love u <3

strange heartbeat

im back here again...realy duno wad i can do...neither duno who i can speak wif...as i was typing...my heartbeat strangely...its nt the normal usual rhythm as it is...as it beats...i felt the flesh of my heart pulls n drags my muscles...i realy duno wad is happening...i tot...could dis means dat im sad and depressed? i realy duno...the feeling is too strange...as i type...flashbacks of my memories keep appearing in my head...i realy wish i had the ability to turn time over...bt fact is dat wad has happened had happened...although i duno wad im thinking is true o nt...bt all i ever wanted was for my sweetheart to be happy...perhaps i had bring her happiness b4...bt a sadness is enough to draw back all the happiness deliver...futhermore...dis time she drop tears...mebe she doesnt think dis way...bt for me...a guy for makes their love one is a bad guy...which dat i appears to be...my head is turning up n down...how i wish she is by my side nw...bt im afraid dat i will nt have the courage to tell her wad im gona write...coz i noe dis may hurt her...dear...all i ever wanted was for u to be happy...although i may nt noe wad u r thinking...bt frm the very deep of my heart...i never wan u to gain sadness...bt seems i have deliver the sadness to u...sorry is the oni word i can say...i cant make u any promises...perhaps dis is the road of our relationship...the path dat we should walk...i will do anytg dat it takes for me to finish the path wif u...as i realy wan u to be the one dat finish the path of my life wif me...i love u...every inch of my heart and soul belongs to u...i realy love u...

its deep

woke up early 2day...had a nightmare in the morning around 7am...geez disturb my sleep...went breakfast wif my fren...then head to college to fetch our new sem timetable...omg PMY is there...pengajian malaysia...such a boring subject T_T...well 2day is kinda peace...juz stay at home n enjoyed DOTA...then found out it was my cousin bday 2day...my uncle was treating my family for dinner...bt i din follow as im nt so use to going out wif them hahaha...ask my sis to dapau for me...then my sweetheart came over around 8pm...brought herself a few comic books...started reading wen she enter my room...lol wad so nice about these comics? =x...chat on the things dat she been tru 2day at skul...then we came to the wad i been tru 2day haha...then i spoke something wrong =x...then she was like lying down on my bed wif her face touching the bed...i tot she was crying...i was like omg...im so dead...bt end up she was juz acting...was realy a little ignore there...well i couldnt be angry of such matter...she was my sweetheart after all =P...then in return i tease her of something...bt the tease was a bit serious it seems...she lie down on the bed again...i tot she was gona act again...bt dis time it seems real...tried to get her up bt i couldnt...she is realy crying...shit...wad have i done...she was hiding her face frm me...bt i knew she is crying...bt i juz couldnt do anytg...i juz hug her in my arms...juz sudenly at dat moment...a feeling dat i have never been tru came by...my heart was like...torn? stab? slash? i duno...juz dat i felt my heart hurts...n it hurts deeply...then my tears was like about to pop out...juz at dat time she was about to get up...i turn my face over...trying to hide my tears frm her...then i asked her wad happen...after some pursue she finaly said...im afraid of losing u...my heart hurts even more...i noe i have realy hurt her wen i tease her juz nw...i told her about my nightmare...bt nt all of it...there was a part i din tell her...b4 the ocean part...in the dream i was wif her wen sudenly i was like being transfered to some place in the ocean...awhile later i jump out of the dream n woke up...in a trauma condition...although i duno wad the dreams wana say...bt all i noe is...her tears r the blood of my heart and soul...the moment she drop tears...my heart n soul bleeds...sweetheart im realy sorry...i din mean to hurt u...im realy sorry...

great time

sudenly felt like blogging...although i was a bit tired...been tru a packed day...slept 2am++ last nite...woke up 9am dis morning...went out breakfast wif my frens n her...then head down to kbox for the main event...1st time use the big room...cost rm 550+ =.=...jayson gf's fren join us as well...sang a few songs at start...geting warm up =P...shouted many later on =/...had a few duet wif my sweetheart...1st time sing wif her...haha so happy...bt was a little annoyed wen the bill came as the divident of payment went a little out of thought...bt manage to settle it in the end...sang for 5 hours...walao so tiring...then head on to infi for some relaxation...3 frens of mine went for snooker while me n jayson 2 couples went for pc...played dota while she was beside me...super motivation hahaha...then took dinner at fok sing area around 8pm...had chicken chop rice...my sweetheart ordered "man dai lok min" bt the aunty seems to have forgoten...make my dear no dinner =.=...she had to go home n make maggi mee...cant accompany her coz had nite plans wif my frens...red wine party at kenny house lol...cant reject haha...bt if were to ask me frm the heart...sry frens...i wud rather choose to accompany my sweetheart =x...don kill me if u guys ever have a chance to c dis post lol...bt i guess i cant help it...i realy enjoyed being 2gt wif her...past days she told me she had a dream...in the dream i propose break up wif her...and dat realy makes her unhappy...bt i guess i wun do dat...although im nt 100% sure of wad will happen in the future...bt i can assure dat i aint gona do anytg dat is gona hurt her...was so touch wen she send a voice recording msg...my heart was realy melted =x...juz felt like i cant lose her in my life now...she has been a part of my soul...sweetheart i love u forever muackzzz <3