if only...

2day is a tiring day...class early in the morning...work in the evening til late nite...gosh...tired...felt very uneasy 2day...juz wish to receive n reply a few more messages...bt don have the time to...aiiz...finished work at 12.30am+...text dear...bt her reply were slow...duno wad she is doing though...perhaps watching movie...got emo...aiiz...sometimes i juz wish to c her name appear more often in my hp screen...bt things often don go so easy...posted emo things at fb again...she got real fed up...scolded me...no resistance...sometimes perhaps im juz missing her too much...sud i learn to control dat? i don think i can...i realy duno...sometimes i force her to send me photos of hers...not becoz i want to make her do something she reluctant to...bt i juz wish to c her latest face...at least i would help me go on till the day she reaches home where i could meet her in real life...maybe wad i did n think irritates her...im sorry dear...maybe u will wont c dis post...or maybe duno when u will...i juz wish u to noe...i have never change frm the day u r in ipoh...till the day u r at genting working for 3 months...sometimes i juz wish im born in a super rich family...then i can stop working or studying n juz permanently be beside u...forever n after...bt the time god created human...life is seldom easy...there r things n road we gota go tru...i can juz pray...our road is hard n bumby now...may our future road be smooth n last forever...