25th february 2010

2day is an important day for many ppl...its the stpm results release day...of coz its important for my dear as well...she msg me at sharp 12pm...asking me whether have my class finish...i haven...she wan me to help he check the results...awile later...she text me no need to check...i asked y...she said...don ask...=(...at the moment i can guess...she would have found out her results...n it doesnt seem to be very well frm her reaction...begin to worry about her...totaly lost concentration in class...wasnt even paying attention to the lecturer...rush back home after class...she send me her result via sms...she was wondering whether would she be qualified for local u...later then...she told me...she would be going to singapore...as soon as posible...dis strikes me...real hard...bt frm the pass i noe dis could happen...bt juz din expect dat it would hit me dat hard...realy duno wad to do now...if i were to said its ok i understand...perhaps its juz a word to make my dear feel better...i had rather i suffer everything than to let her feel bad...realy down now...duno whether wana attend class n work later o nt...realy nt in the condition...dear...i realy noe y u wanted to head out to singapore...i noe its for ur future...bt pls forgive me...for my crunch of after hearing u said dat...forgive me for being sad n depressed...for it realy hard for me to let u go once again...1st time to genting n now to singapore...couldnt bare the feeling dat my heart is being tear down...its not ur fault...its juz dat im weak...still couldnt accept it...don feel bad wen u c dis post...becoz i noe i don have the courage to tell u dis face to face...i can juz post it out so u will have a chance to noe...promise me...wen u head out to singapore...u muz take good care of urself...i realy duno wad to type anymore...promise me 1 last thing...u will still be mine wen u return...for i will be urs no matter where u r...i realy love u...