tough dilemma

2day is 年初八...everyone will be at home waiting for 12am to 拜天公...except for me...went out wif kenny earlier n enjoyed a few dota games...on the way home...saw a lot of houses wif preparations to celebrate dis once a year chinese event...bt not for me...dis year...im alone in the house...listening to the sounds of fireworks played by those who celebrates the event...suddenly tot bk the past things of mine n my dear...our happy moments...realy miss those days...at the same time...i have decided...i wanted to quit the ING insurance job...dis decision has bothered me for quite some time coz i have too much circumstances to think bout...most importantly...i have to consider a feeling of my one very best fren...bt guess dis time i will have to dissappoint him...i have decided to quit...cant say quit...i have not even properly started...exact saying is...i wanted to stop...its nt hard to go on wif the job...bt...one thing i consider the most is time...im studying now in the morning n working at nite...most of my time will be spend on these...if i were to go on wif the insurance job...i would likely have not much time...even to spend...i noe dat time is very important...n i wanted more time wif my dear...she will juz have a few days holiday bk in ipoh...if i were to cont wif the job...i would definitely have no time to accompany her as i noe...the job eats portion of my time...i dowan dat to happen...i noe i have promise my dear i would work hard for our future...bt looking upon the future...2day...i have started to crumble...for the moment...i juz wana spend most of my time wif my most love one...my dear...although i duno whether she would support my decision...bt anyway...i have decided...im sorry dear...pls forgive my immatureness...for my love on u is too deep...forgive me...im sorry...