maybe its the last post

work up around 10.30am++ dis morning...then i check the hp for msg...found 4 unread msg...the msg were frm my dear...the suprise was the msg saying...i din reply her msg n she wanted to give up on our relationship...NOOOO...dear...i din meant to not reply ur msg...i done working last nite nearly 1am n i tot u were asleep...so i din reply...i dowan to disturb u...bt...i din expect it to lead to dis situation...now u said u were tired of waiting my msg...dear...i realy din mean to not reply ur msg...everything is coincidence...i tried to call bt she was busy training...y has dis happen? does distance n being apart realy can bring more hardness compared to being close? i realy duno...i dowan our relationship to end...NOT FOR A STUPID COINCIDENCE !!! i noe she is realy upset now...i cant call her n explain...aiiz...realy frustated now...f**k...was thinking...wad if we realy ended up breaking up? my life would be meaningless...was even silly enuf to think...i be sad for weeks...then use some time to settle up wad i left to settle...then cut my artery n let blood flow out of me? or juz jump down frm a 10 storey building? realy tot of dying at the moment...ppl may say...its silly to siucide for love...bt for me...rather than losing your most love one...ur other half...is better to die rather to live n suffer for the rest of ur life...realy upset now...couldnot think of much things...i duno wad the outcome would be...bt if it realy goes to a situation dat is not favourable n anything happens to me...dis could be my last msg...dear...i realy love u...dats no lie to it...im 120% sure i love u...bt...if things realy had gone beyond expected...i juz wan u to noe...all the laughter and joy we once had is true...the love i have to offer is all true from me...though i duno whether will u have a chance to read dis...maybe no...bt...if u do...and unfortunate things had happen to me...pls forgive me...i love u now n i will love u till the end of time