9 more days

2day was a normal day for me...went to class...except dat i don have to work hahaha...went for TigerWooHoo alone dis noon...enjoyed the movie...realy a nice movie from local DJ's...good job Malaysians hahaha...was thinking...if my dear were to watch wif me...she would have drop tears at a few parts of the movie...was realy touching...i nearly drop tears as well lolz...then came a message...the message says...she will return to ipoh on 4th of february...how delighted i was dat moment...after so long...i finaly get to c my sweetheart again...realy cant describe my joy dat time...bt the joy din last long...juz went on till my dinner ends...was a bit unhappy wen i din receive her message after some time...i noe i should felt dis way...bt i juz cant control it...maybe she is busy...or have something to do...i juz tot dat at least i could noe...dats all i wished for...i guess its not very over for dat...bt i noe its bad for feeling such...got my sis to lend her the portable dvd player...tot dis would make her life at genting a bit more enjoyable...not juz going for work n heading bk to hostel and rest...as tot i would juz ask her to take it wif her to genting wen she returns there and send it back wen her mum goes to genting to visit her upon CNY...bt dis wasnt wad she wanted...realy dowan to argue over dis kind of matter...realy felt unhappy and upset wenever we argued over matters dat doesnt involved us...something which is over dead materials...realy make me fed up...and dis situation will juz lead me to another...emo...aiiz...realy upset n sad now...duno wad i can do...sometimes matter got out of hands...out of my hands...beyond things dat i can do...sometimes i felt im juz too timid...perhaps useless...sometimes these emo feelings will lead me to think...wad m i good for in dis world? perhaps juz a normal guy whom alwiz make his family worry and sad? or a useless bf who cant make his other half happy? i realy cant make a choice...im suppose to be happy 2day...bt....juz duno y god put a turn over my feelings 2nite...if can...someone juz run over me with a vehicle or something...and perhaps i can whispered into the wind juz like dat...sorry dear...i noe u will felt very bad wen u read dis...