DAY 14

very emo 2day...duno y...though i enjoy a good dota game dis noon...has a relax class...bt juz sudenly...i felt opposite...think back a lot of things we do last time...she has been away for 2 weeks...away frm me for 2 weeks...these days had been hard for me n her...realy hard...miss her a lot 2day...more than i used to...duno y...aiiz...realy sked...im afraid that the coming future may not be as expected...im afraid that we may have changed...no idea y the thought came to my head...im afraid that the changes may cause us to go different path...i realy don hope dat it will happen...i noe dat she will be sad wen she read dis post...bt...sry dear...sometimes im realy afraid dat u may have changed wen u return...and i may not catch up wif the "new u"...realy wish she is by my side...though we promised to work hard at each other place...bt sometimes its realy hard...hard to not having u by my side...i miss ur voice...ur laughter...n the most is ur face...u r my motivator my strength...realy living my life nowadays like a zombie...have to use study work n games to keep myself going...juz like a zombie need flesh to move on...i duno wen i will collapse...felt myself cracking...my defense wall...being rush by the loneliness and miss towards u...my endurance is geting weak...hopefully u r back to me b4 i loses the war...dear...i realy miss u...i realy hope dat we can return to the days where we can meet everyday...bt i don have the ability to control time...if i do...i would return time to where we r 2gt every moment...happy and sad...where u r by my side n im by urs...