wish i could be perfect

juz return home after hanging out wif my frens...usualy spot infi...snoker n pc...ntg new haha...injured my hand wen i was playing snoker...accidentaly bang my hand to the table...geez it hurts...bruise...juz played a game in snoker n i let my fren took my spot...wana sms wif my sweetheart xD...kinda feel bad 2day...cant accompany her...although she says go accompany ur frens...she is fine...were owning in the DOTA game...then she text me saying miss me...bt nt like the normal tune...is more in a depressed form...asked her y bt she was reluctant to tell...i din pursue as i dowan to force her...bt more less i felt the culprit is me...well no evidence bt juz instinct...my mood start to turn...were trying to rush my fren back home then i could go n c her...bt seems she doesnt wana c me...wish i could have time for her 2day bt could reject my fren frm going out...i tot i could do well in both situations bt seems i juz could be alwiz perfect...wish dat i could be...bt sometimes the circumstances doesnt let me frm doing so...guess im juz a plain normal human haha...well...guess i have to work harder...n i wish dat my sweetheart will get better soon...juz wan u to noe dat i have alwiz love u <3