deep guilty

its juz another normal nite...except an incident make it totaly different for me...well as usual we both wil b sms-ing...she told me she is going to night market wif her sis in law...then i told her "i guess i wil b staying at home n come good boy hahaha"...i guess i din do dat...i was feeling bored at home...well sudenly around 10pm+ my fren ask me whether wana join them yam cha...i reply sure without hesitation...n i told her im going out...well at 1st i tot she wasnt annoyed...bt guess i was wrong...seems she realy care for wad i have said...n i din do wad i said...i think i lost my worthiness...i felt guilty...guess i realy hurt her...as i was feeling guilty...the tv screen of the spot i was at was showing "secret ( bu neng shuo de mi mi )...my emotions were dead...the show were at where jay chou was having piano competition wif yu hao for the lyrics of a piano play...my mind juz pop out a thought...although its juz a movie...jay chou did wad he could to get the lyrics for the 1 he loves...bt wad i did...nt even happiness i deliver i had hurt her...n i was trying to act funny wif my messages...grr wad a idiot...y m i having fear while im typing...perhaps im sumtimes too naive on my thoughts...dear...im realy sorry if i realy hurt u...perhaps sorry is the oni thing i can say nw...