am i stil conscious? haha

its late...n yet im stil blogging hahaha...well perhaps kinda used to write wen i feel a little emo...been going out recently wif her...of coz i am happy wenever iam wif her...cant explain the feeling...maybe becoz dis is all i have been looking for after all those days?i guess dat is the oni answer dat can solve the question...sometimes i do think back my past...bt as there is a saying...past is pass...future is wad u muz be looking at...bt hw many ppl actualy noes wad is happening at future...some ppl dream...some ppl pray...some ppl wish...bt juz hw many ppl can go according as they want their future to be...no specific answer to dat...of coz i had dream pray wish for my very own future...no ppl wan a bad future...neither ppl wan an incomplete future...juz wad is a complete future? a future where everything goes as wad u had plan n hope it is? or a future where u had wad u need n ur soul mate beside u? nobody noes...bt i hope...in my future i have her...well there r no guranty to dat...bt i wudnt wan her to leave my side...neither do i wana dump her away...ahh i duno wad im typing...my heart juz felt so mess up sudenly...recently my fren told me a sumtg about his relationship...he said he lost half of his frens becoz he wana b wif the 1 he love...at dat moment...i tot...dis wun happen to me...i can manage dis matter...time to b wif frens n time to be the 1 u love...yes i can do dis...im sure i can...i am wondering if im being too sensitive sometimes...something small...i can juz over think till something dat is imposible to be...aiiz i hate myself wen i do dat...juz hope dat my own stupid thoughts wont bring harm to any1