emotional mess

im back to blogging haha...bt my mood 2day hasnt been stable...it went up n down...at start was tension as i haven prepare anytg for the debate dat is going on...perhaps juz mere preparation...cant help it...guess i wil juz go tru it naturally...n seems i did nt bad for it haha...gt relax a bit...of coz my dear calm me as her support came to me b4 i was debating...during the break...my fren asked for a badminton game 2day...well i tot i din played quite some time...was feeling a bit hand itchy...plus his arrogance made me wana trash him...bt later on...i found out dat my dear was alone in the house...a little worried...bt i dowan to ffk my fren...same time i wish i could accompany her...wad a dilemma...i tink i made my dear sad n moody wen i told her i wanted to go n play...bt my fren aint being a good host...told me he wanted to delay the playing time...my mood turns...if he cudnt make it then at least could tell me a little earlier...then i wud go n accomapny her...n my mood is ruin...decided to tell him i dowan to go...seems my dear is realy tired n moody...or perhaps i think too much...i realy duno...suddenly tot of the quiz back at facebook where she scores excellent in the bf/gf quiz bt she thinks she aint dat good...i felt the same...guess i aint being such a good bf dat i thought i wud...im sorry dear...i said i wana be there wen u need me...bt i am nt...wad a jerk i am...cant even do such simple thing...disappointed of myself...