duno hw to describe my feelings

well...2day is a tension day for me...im driving to parade~!!its my 1st time hahaha...i tension till i asked my fren to guide me the way there n back home...silly me...well cant help it...im a road blind T_T...perhaps dats my biggest weak point...bt i guess it will b no problem since my dear will b beside me all the time =)...accompany her for lunch at MCD b4 we head out...after a satisfying lunch...we head towards parade...well guess wad...i din go according to the route i planned...infact a more simpler road dat she guide me =)...although in my heart im feeling a little "face lost" bt its ok wif me since i noe my weakness...silly me hahaha...so love face...bt wad to do...boys nature x)...at MCD she sent me a msg...sumtg regarding the calculation of love using the "bi hua" of ur chinese name...well im totaly a nerd in dat...so i din do the calculation...upon reaching parade...i had my 1st experience of driving up the super tornado road upon the roof top xP...nt pretty hard though...then parked my car then we head down straight to sky max(mebe miss spell the shop name ) n search for presents...found ntg...so we head down to the spot where her sis is working...Gift Box...she bought a crystal ball statue thingy n packed it herself...she was complaining dat y she have to packed it herself n nt her sis do it...i said well doing it urself makes the meaning more deep =)...after done packing we left since she had to fetch her sis-in-law for medical check up...felt strange wen i reach home after i send her home...i felt i miss her more 2day...mebe its becoz of a topic we talk on the way home...she speak on her ex bf...well she said her ex bf mum treat her very good...i gt no comment on dat...she was wif the ex bf for like 1 1/2 years bt broke at last...i asked y...perhaps a stupid question...bt infact she answered...many factors...bt her main was understanding problem...well i gota agree dats a very important factor...i felt i miss her more then usualy wen i reached home...even i cant tell why...was sms-ing wif her as i was typing...she asked for my chinese name...i knew she wanted to calculate the "bi hua"...the answer dat came out wasnt so joyful as i was expecting...n she asked me to take the quiz on the wen wil u have ur date...hers came out as expected bt mine wasnt...nt to mention the results for both quizes...sudenly i felt emotional...i realy take dis relationship seriously...well although i understand those quizes aint true...juz felt dat blessings aint wif us...aiiz...y am i so emotional...another weakness of mine...too emotional...hopes dat my dear wun c dis too fast...else dis may hurt her as well =X...sry dear if dis post worries u...i felt better after writing dis...hahaha...guess dis is wad my god sis tells me...happy n sad at the same time...