up n down then up again down

heart been beating fast as im typing...as i type mind keep thinking about it...thinking whether sud i make my step...for awile i have been helping out others on opinion n consults bt it seems i cant even convince myself on my own things...wad a failure im >.<...i tried to seek opinion frm fren...bt it seems the fren dat i seek help frm is the 1 i mite going to take the actions to...omg wad m i doing...the opinion was go for it...u nvr try u nvr noe...wad if i make my step n things doesnt went as smooth as i was expecting? taking a step to forward a good fren relation towards a couple relation is yet a much courageous step to take...i duno have i the courage...im crumbling