a triggering song

so bored 2day...facing the same problem again...aiiz...invited my collegemate for lunch...discuss about the problem...a little relief after talking wif him...heard a very triggering song...lolipop xiao yu's 只要你还记得...there was a part saying...wround in love is the 1 u will rmb the most...dis triggered the scene where my dear said she wana break wif me at a particular nite...a very sad nite for me...stil rmb the scene of dat nite...the impact on me...crying in the car...realy miss her now...although i noe she is busy at genting...wif her own work n situations to handle...bt i realy wish dat i could juz hug her for a moment now...i noe i couldnt change the fact of her leaving...bt...at least i wish to give her a big hug b4 she leaves...a hug which represents i will be the 1 for u wenever u need a ppl to spare a hug n time to listen n speak...i couldnt ask for more...as i don possessed the ability n authority to...juz 1 big hug would be enuf...juz wish dat the day b4 she returns bk to genting...i can give her a big hug...sometimes i noe im juz not the 100% bf i can be...bt i will try to give 120% of wad she needs in my possibilities n ability...felt she realy change a lot...became realy mature compared to b4 leaving my side n head to the cruel world of community...haha...kinda relief...bt sometimes im oso worried...worried of the threats she may face n so do i...flowers attract wild butterflies no matter where they r...aiiiz...nothing i can do...perhaps i have done all i could...tot of a sentence...你没权力去选择你要的爱...但你可以选择你要爱的人...if she's the 1 you will choose...then acceptance muz be given no matter hw reluctant it can get...i will choose to accept all dat may come...becoz i noe...she will be the 1 dat i will love for dis life...