its deep

woke up early 2day...had a nightmare in the morning around 7am...geez disturb my sleep...went breakfast wif my fren...then head to college to fetch our new sem timetable...omg PMY is there...pengajian malaysia...such a boring subject T_T...well 2day is kinda peace...juz stay at home n enjoyed DOTA...then found out it was my cousin bday 2day...my uncle was treating my family for dinner...bt i din follow as im nt so use to going out wif them hahaha...ask my sis to dapau for me...then my sweetheart came over around 8pm...brought herself a few comic books...started reading wen she enter my room...lol wad so nice about these comics? =x...chat on the things dat she been tru 2day at skul...then we came to the wad i been tru 2day haha...then i spoke something wrong =x...then she was like lying down on my bed wif her face touching the bed...i tot she was crying...i was like omg...im so dead...bt end up she was juz acting...was realy a little ignore there...well i couldnt be angry of such matter...she was my sweetheart after all =P...then in return i tease her of something...bt the tease was a bit serious it seems...she lie down on the bed again...i tot she was gona act again...bt dis time it seems real...tried to get her up bt i couldnt...she is realy crying...shit...wad have i done...she was hiding her face frm me...bt i knew she is crying...bt i juz couldnt do anytg...i juz hug her in my arms...juz sudenly at dat moment...a feeling dat i have never been tru came by...my heart was like...torn? stab? slash? i duno...juz dat i felt my heart hurts...n it hurts deeply...then my tears was like about to pop out...juz at dat time she was about to get up...i turn my face over...trying to hide my tears frm her...then i asked her wad happen...after some pursue she finaly said...im afraid of losing u...my heart hurts even more...i noe i have realy hurt her wen i tease her juz nw...i told her about my nightmare...bt nt all of it...there was a part i din tell her...b4 the ocean part...in the dream i was wif her wen sudenly i was like being transfered to some place in the ocean...awhile later i jump out of the dream n woke up...in a trauma condition...although i duno wad the dreams wana say...bt all i noe is...her tears r the blood of my heart and soul...the moment she drop tears...my heart n soul bleeds...sweetheart im realy sorry...i din mean to hurt u...im realy sorry...