strange heartbeat

im back here again...realy duno wad i can do...neither duno who i can speak wif...as i was typing...my heartbeat strangely...its nt the normal usual rhythm as it is...as it beats...i felt the flesh of my heart pulls n drags my muscles...i realy duno wad is happening...i tot...could dis means dat im sad and depressed? i realy duno...the feeling is too strange...as i type...flashbacks of my memories keep appearing in my head...i realy wish i had the ability to turn time over...bt fact is dat wad has happened had happened...although i duno wad im thinking is true o nt...bt all i ever wanted was for my sweetheart to be happy...perhaps i had bring her happiness b4...bt a sadness is enough to draw back all the happiness deliver...futhermore...dis time she drop tears...mebe she doesnt think dis way...bt for me...a guy for makes their love one is a bad guy...which dat i appears to be...my head is turning up n down...how i wish she is by my side nw...bt im afraid dat i will nt have the courage to tell her wad im gona write...coz i noe dis may hurt her...dear...all i ever wanted was for u to be happy...although i may nt noe wad u r thinking...bt frm the very deep of my heart...i never wan u to gain sadness...bt seems i have deliver the sadness to u...sorry is the oni word i can say...i cant make u any promises...perhaps dis is the road of our relationship...the path dat we should walk...i will do anytg dat it takes for me to finish the path wif u...as i realy wan u to be the one dat finish the path of my life wif me...i love u...every inch of my heart and soul belongs to u...i realy love u...